On Leave from Blogging

Due to some medical family issues I will not be bloggin for awhile. I will check in and see how others are doing, post if I can. At least I can say I've lost everything I had gained...but life is slamming me right now with my father and son, so keep us all in your prayers please.

Thank you

Ok...Here I Go Again...

It's just not working, I want it to work but it's just not, Weight Watchers Point Plus Program that is. Yes I have had this conversation here before. Yes, I have written, "I know I need to eliminate carbs due to my insulin problems." Yes, this is the same ole same ole I have been writing off and on since the beginning of the year. I am eating all my points in as many carb-rich foods that I can. I am eating within the points plus average of 29 points a day or less, and the weight isn't budging. I am miserable like this. I hate trying and no gains (or no losses only gains I guess it is better to say.) SO....for the upteenth time this year I am switching gears. My plan is to begin by going off grains, refined flour and refined sugar and then as I go look at dairy. I am going to hydrate more. I am going to exercise despite the heat and humidity (that is only an excuse.) AND...drum roll please...I want to be like Dawn at At New Dawn and get my ass off the scale. If I don't have the loss I expect I become depressed and feel like giving up. My mind-set is set each day according to what the scale says. My goal is to get up every morning and just work my own program and a month from now, two months from now maybe, whatever feels comfortable, check my weight.  Tomorrow is a big family get-together/dinner at my house. There is going to be hot dogs and good desserts. I have decided I am going to partake within reason and Sunday morning when I rise my program begins. 30 DAYS...I can eliminate bad carbs for that long, and go from there.

I hope everyone has a great weekend and a safe one. Please bare with me as I try and figure out what is best for me and for my health. I want to lose this weight to be healthy and BE HERE to take care of my son. I WILL do this!!!

Kelly

P.S. I read a blog post on Princess' site that said, "why don't people post the weight? It's just a number..."  You are so right Girlfriend, I hate to say it but starting this I need to be honest:

Beginning weight 2008: 236 lbs
Today's Weight: 210 lbs

For as long as I can stand it, that's the last number for awhile...